Time to earn my name

avoid this conversation at your next holiday meal
as an adolescent vauge conception gave way to animated imaginings. to me the church I attended was God not just the bible but the church which was god seemed to spend an exhausting time preponderating issues having to do with our physical lives. condemning and condoning various sexual behaviors and preferences so much so that i thought for a long time that god cared as much about sex as the church did .. if god wanted me to stay pure and to avoid any lewd sexual exploits well it made perfect sense to me that there was wink wink secret unspoken reason for gods concern with my physical desires and behaviors exclusively relevant to our physical lives here on earth and not the personality disorders and strategies that would make you an unwelcome spirit for all eternity

because after all whats abortion and gay sex when your a spirit

in my mind as as child the secret reason y god cared so much was because god wanted to sleep with me in fact god being male was ruthless and jealous of me sleeping with other men but would allow my dalliances with women particularly my wife because he didn't want to play my wife per se
im my mind for years throughout my church filled adolescence

God wanted to Fuck me



merry xmas

obsessions

whats the difference between love and obsession ...stalking?

love + stalking = obsession

can obsession and jealousy be carcinogenic (cancer causing)