Friday, October 02, 2009

N2 the Woods IN to the Woods

I'm so glad that I don't jump into love the way i did b4 where i would turn a

corner and find myself knee deep in the water of love way deep in the forest or

jungle unable to see out or anything else now i like to wade into the woods

slowly but typically after a while a i start to think you know

what this park is pretty scary.

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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

what is love?Love is cheap

love is cheap dammit .. Love is only expensive to people who have nothing going for them ...don't believe me what is a pre-nuptial agreement .. two people protecting themselves and their assets from the insanity of love.. because assets are expensive love is not and should not be

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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

The Thing about Love

I like to think Relationships and Success go hand in hand
an acquaintance or an unpicked associate can be a lowlife awkward or inadequate but not someone I choose to call a friend
Once you enter the Truth and Virtue Party you don't want to leave or lie to yourself for anyone
Why should Good People feel guilty for their blessings
I don't know if I should be driving my car taking my lover for the ride or if I should ride alongside my partner inside their vehicle helping with directions as we go..I just don't think my lover should be driving my car while I'm tied up in the trunk.. or vice versa ..Like sometimes when I'm in love I feel like I'm in the back seat of my own car... and I'm just looking out the window .. Just because I'm in love does not mean I have to lose control of my car..

Maybe I should look at it more like a dance? I just got dizzy trying to adjust my metaphor

I don't believe in looking for love but I don't believe in pushing it away either.
you know it's love because it's feels like speed bump on your way to the Glory of Goal accomplishments.. and at it's best it feels like stage diving into the biggest cup of cotton candy you could imagine

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

The BoyFriend Affect and Father Time

Now that I found love the boyz come at me hard body with the negative projections

"It aint going to work .. you 're just gonna get hurt. gays can't be faithful"


I think I'm realizing a necessary ingredient for this monogamy recipe is TIMING

Don’t disrespect my father!

there were others I've loved even if I kept it to myself.. Chances are if I was f$#%$&g you consistently or chasing you around I loved you briefly


but the timing was always off
when they didn't love me or vice versa ... In my last relationship I felt I was wooing and seducing the guy far more that they were trying to seduce or impress me .. and even though we eventually took up the mantle of monogamy . It was always tainted by the fact that I had to convince and persuade them

but not now with my baby boy
You see since our attraction was so mutual and so instantaneous a spark that was too beautiful and reciprocal to let fizzle with hesitation

why should I have to wait around for these ignorant pretty bottoms to figure out that just because their boyfriend/date is ugly doesn’t mean he's going to be masculine..

You know how many thugs I bent over and I was their first only because you Homo’s couldn’t see past their look or dick and never even asked them to give up the booty


then afterwards
these ugly MF's always brag and tell me they f$%^$d ya'll then I'm thinking "shit he's ruined to me now " I don’t want to line up after an ugly or common MF

and then I’m supposed to take up with them after they’ve been dicked by every ugly girly boy on the block ?

This pharaoh doesn’t cum after common folk

If my baby f#$#%d around with ugly tops then he's smart enough not to tell me about it !

once I was f#$%kn this guy and DURING SEX he went on and on about various sexcapades..

" yea that time I fucked this kid and his father I met on the train and that time I got fucked on the porta potty and that other time on Superman rollercoaster..."

meanwhile I’m thinking not only are you a slut but you have no standards
I cant wife self described trash
I’m a pharaoh


My New love wasn’t distorted by jealous friends and enemies gossip,money drugs or warped perceptions and rumors we were upfront about who we are from the beginning (jump)


the words NO and wait are against my religion ..but I do hope you all eventually find the love that is blooming inside me ..

already my eyes have relaxed as nobody can match my baby on the sexy category.. It nice to be able to just work, travel and go without thinking of random guys as a potential.. It’s nice to be needed. and yet the best part is have someone who takes an interest in me
that's the very best part

God Bless

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Monday, July 09, 2007

Affection...

does monogamy come in my size?


last week I had a little party over the Holiday .. the theme was Affection .


my invite stated
"in a world of cold calculated ambition and hostility let affection lead you to me "

I find that my friends and i are very sexual and very social but not very affectionate or compassionate with each other and our lovers . .

so then a friend brought a friend and i looked and him and he looked at me
nothing more to say?

so good so right

and i felt something I havent felt since charly

a rapid familiarity

a connection that spans lifetimes and civilizations

a strong desire to protect and provide

taking over my brain

alas i ended the party and me and my buddy stayed under the covers and played affectionate for days ..
it was unrelenting

we eventually ventured to the bathroom to re enact matrix scenes amisdt bubbles and water

at one point my foot was the bathroom window another on the soap dish up side down round and round in slow

i woke up with his little face tucked into my grasp and it felt good

Now I want him for myself


Did affection start this ?

does it lead inexorably to monogamy ?

Monogamy.. will be my greatest lesson.

to behold and bestow


perhaps I'l be a better man for it

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